I just set the timer for 20 minutes - that's what I'm alotting to write this post.
I've been gathering items to write about and filing them away. I've moved way beyond guilt over not writing. I'm in overwhelm and work fatigue.
What can I say? I'm trying to find my way back into the blogging groove. It requires a system change. I had an epiphany moment today about how to change my work structure to give me back my old freedom and flexibility so that I'm not worn out and tired at the end of the day. I'm going to spend more time in my home office and less time in the outside office with my other business partners. The comraderie is great but not my productivity, or flexibility with time and structure.
Poignant once in a lifetime moments have also been taking precedence over blogging. Two weekends ago we went back to Ohio to visit family - had special moments with my 86 yr.old aunt (sister of my deceased mom); we went to see our senior college daughter's visual thesis and met her Graphic Design professors. I glowed all the way back to South Carolina reliving the moment when our daughter's class of senior graphic design students voted our daughter most likely to change the world with one design.
This past weekend we spent in Gatlinburg (3 hrs away) with old friends, laughing and listening to the sounds of music from the 70's. It felt good to be with a liberal crowd.
This weekend we head back to Ohio for the college graduation. I already feel emotional about it. Four years ago our younger daughter graduated from high school. We sold the family home, moved to South Carolina for a job transfer, and left our daughter back in Ohio. She grew up fast. And the four years flew by. This is the milestone time - not just for our daughter, but for us as parents. We're moving into a different phase of parenting - enjoying the flight of our children, but I feel sad about that too. More change for poor old Mom. And on that note, the timer just went off.