I am enough. I have wisdom enough. I have faith enough. I know enough. I do not need to strive or strain. I do not need to reach or worry. I am enough.
- Julia Cameron, Heart Steps - Prayers and Declarations for a Creative Life
These words reach me this morning like a lifeline thrown to one struggling in rushing waters. Instead of rushing waters, I find myself caught in the grips of torrential mental noise: I need to market more. I need to create more pay per click ads. I need to read through all the material from my online marketing training. I need to do each and every exercise. I am not doing enough. I need to make money. More money! I need to do it now. Urgent, urgent, urgent!
"I am enough." These words stop me. The mental churning fades out. I exhale. I feel emotion rising up from my heart and escaping through the tears in my eyes. I sense another part of me coming forward. She comes not from ego, but from that part connected to the Divine. She is calm, patient, wise, She trusts. She takes her time. I sense her compassion and love.
I sit still. I notice the relief I feel. I watch my churning thoughts shift into positive scenarios. I imagine what my life could look like as I embrace knowing I am enough. I can see my grown daughters as enough, trusting them to make mistakes and surviving just fine. I can use the knowing that I am enough to take my time and plan my marketing steps for my business. Instead of feeling overwhelmed I can feel focused. I can feel lighter because I make this marketing manageable.
My imagination continues to prance ahead. As I quiet the demanding inner pressure, I can be more present to others, more positive, more caring. Better self care leads to better care of others. Not necessarily doing more. Just showing up in a different way.
I start first with myself. I resolve to lengthen my quiet time early in the morning. To spend the first minutes of the new day in stillness, prayer, and reflection. To ensure that the person who gets out of bed knows she is enough, and knows that her "spirit is large enough for any circumstance."
Who are you when you remember you are enough?
[Photo Credit: Arjun Kartha]