It occurs to me late this afternoon, while doing a Jazzercise class, that my "inner Cinderella" has broken free of her imprisonment. My energy on every level skyrockets! I work out at my best level.
I recall that it begins last evening when I attend a monthly business association meeting. I am feeling very energetic. Filled with well-being, I network like a pro and enjoy meeting new people. I continue with friends in the hotel bar after the meeting. I don't remember the last time I feel this kind of energy.
My enthusiasm continues today at work. I face all the same problems and issues present yesterday, but today I do so with levity and fun. I have patience with myself. I have patience with the people on the other end of the phone line. I have patience with traffic. I feel like the best of myself. More compassionate, less interested in being judgmental.
What a switch. For the past couple of weeks I've been feeling tired, jaded, resistant. I felt uninspired to write a simple blog post. I felt like a drudge, like Cinderella working with no reprieve in sight. But instead of sweeping floors like Cinderella, I was feeling suffocated by unexamined, absurd expectations of myself. Such as, "I can't relax until I'm a financial success like the gurus I listen to." or "I have to figure out the magic bullet." Pressure, pressure, pressure.
By the time Saturday arrives, a touch of food poisoning grounds me and forces me to rest. I'm still in my pj's at 2:00 p.m. and I don't get any chores done, nor do I "accomplish" anything. I sit on the couch and read fiction. I play a subdued game of bridge with friends that evening.
Being "benched" gives me the opportunity to do some reflection and meditation. I find myself hanging onto Dick Richard's words about taking ourselves less seriously,in his response to a comment at his post, Let It Go! Let It Go! Let It Go!. He recommends laughter and silliness to offset the seriousness in life, and in particular in the field of self development.
I'm not sure quite how I make the leap from tired and resistant to energetic and positive. And really it doesn't matter. But I do think Dick's words influenced me. What I do understand is that somewhere along the line I decided I can feel good without external situations changing.
And the wise Cinderella within who broke free knows that I can go far if I do these two things at this time in my life: follow my energy (rest when I'm tired; go in the direction that feels good, as opposed to resistant); and build in a couple of brief times per day to be still and get in the space of "allowing" myself to be. Practicing these two things can "grease" my receptivity for guidance and direction around business goals without anxious exertion on my part to find the answers.
I guess I don't need Prince Charming after all.