There are those who believe you must find your credibility before people will want to read what you write and what we want you to understand is that when you tune in to who you really are that's where your true credibility comes from----and that's attractive to anyone who's a vibrational match to it. In other words anyone who finds you not credible, wouldn't understand what you've written anyway.
It's been over two weeks since my last post. I wonder to myself why I haven't felt moved to write ( my inner censor not withstanding). A few minutes ago a special friend sent me this quote. As I read the words in the quote, I find my courage emerging from the shadows.
Now it's okay to share with you what I've been grappling with of late to understand. In my middle-aged years I sense the passage of life more deeply. Themes of loss seem to dominate at times. In the space of several weeks, my cousin died unexpectedly; my best friend's sister was diagnosed with a brain tumor and died within weeks; another friend's mother died over the weekend, fanning the flames of grief over my own mother's death 18 months ago. I still miss my Mom every day.
Living several states away from friends and family, we can't make it to all the weddings and funerals. I feel torn about that. I call my 83 yr old Dad up on Father's Day, wishing I could be with him. He no longer has an endless number of Fathers Days ahead of him.
I experience an identity crisis of sorts. I ask myself why I live where I live. Am I creating enough of a positive impact to justify living here in South Carolina? Am I allowed to live my life the way I see fit? Will our adult daughters ever live close to us again? Will I ever move off the topic of middle-age?
Amidst these loss-related issues, my husband and I laugh and relax with good friends over the weekend; my business partner and I enjoy a recent, tremendous business success; and I move through my day without getting needlessly stuck. It just goes to show you that life goes on side by side with the angst.
Raising the above questions brings both discomfort, and relief. Unlike the game show, Jeopardy, answers usually don't first show up without a question to pair up with. Now that I've tossed these questions out to the great Universe, I can wait. The answers I need will find me in time, or lead to better questions!