Like the doctor who smokes and doesn't follow his own advice, I find myself in a similar waters. I wonder why I feel out of balance, experiencing resistance instead of well-being. I've gotten into the habit of relying solely on my head and logic to run my life. Soldiering on, I forget to connect within, pausing to hear the wisdom from my Higher Self.
This morning I take the time to listen. I can take in the messages, the reminders of what I know and forget. I find myself feeling better, lighter. I print out the message and vow to read it at the start of my days to come.
I do my connecting via writing. I select a quiet private place. I play evocative music in the background. I may light a candle and say a brief prayer. I like to write using my laptop because I can type faster than write. I typically will pose a question, and as a response begins to emerge, I type, with my eyes closed. I keep my eyes closed simply to keep the flow going. I usually type fast, and make typos. If I had my eyes open I would want to fix the typos immediately, instead of waiting til I'm done writing.
This response to my sense of restlessness and loss over the death of my parents came through earlier this summer. The wisdom remains as relevant today as several months ago:
We tell you to be still, to breathe deeply. You long to know with your head. But first you must know with your heart. It's a similar struggle that your brother is going through. Be still. Practice listening for your heart voice. Bring yourself back to this moment, over and over again. Be okay with feeling what you feel in this moment. Be okay with what is. You use up a lot of energy resisting what is. And trying to use logic and force to create impact in your life, rather than allowing, and understanding that life unfolds - much easier than using resistance to fight or to force. Again we say to you to practice staying in the moment, for a moment. You do realize that it was your heart that guided you to Hendersonville that day, to that bookstore, to that very book that you need in order to be in the moment. Please do not sweat this. You keep forgetting that you are loved and cherished. You feel that lacking, because your mother and father, the first source of your earthly love, have passed on from this physical plane. If only you knew how your loved ones hover and love you from above, you would bask in that warmth and feel the soothing coming your way.
We say this lovingly to you - do not stop feeling what is coming tthrough - do not stop the feeling, even when it's sad or painful. The more deeply you can feel what is painful, the more deeply you can feel the joy and the love.
As I mentioned above, I type with my eyes closed. I have no idea how that last paragraph got underlined. Apparently I hit something on my laptop. But it's obvious that my Higher Self felt that those particular words needed extra emphasis!